I have tried to start dieting & eating clean more than once over these past months, and have started and stopped exercising more than once as well. This standstill is killing me.
Husband says that I am just making excuses. Maybe I am.
The biggest issue I have right now is using food as an emotional, mindless outlet. I have to kick some seriously bad eating habits. Mostly it is impulse eating, out of boredom or out of emotion.
Why have I lost so much motivation and determination? First and foremost, it's an emotional struggle for me in my relationship with food. For example, whenever I am upset, I turn to food. I need to change this habit. Today I went for an hour walk with Maku and felt soooooo AMAZING when I got done. I ate delicious healthy food and felt amazing. Immediately following this, I had an inner meltdown and went out for a shake & chips. I don't feel good now.
Right now, my key word is CONTROL. I need to take control of my life. I have to.
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